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[ Fri May / 12:13am ] |
I have a proposition. I'll flip a coin: heads, I'll study and tails, I don't.
I know our NEWTs are coming up next week, but I just can't be bothered to care. It just seems so useless. Maybe if you need a certain number to get into a specific position, but for most of us, it really won't matter. I'm not sure they'll do me any good at all, and if for some reason my marks aren't good enough for whatever I decide to do, I'm sure my family has some connection that make it possible anyway so it hardly seems worth it to stress. And even when I don't study, I always manage to do well so I'm not especially worried.
Besides, I've had more important things to think about. I've been sorting out what I'm doing this summer, and I've finally got the living arrangements all worked out. I think that's what finally convinced my parents that I was serious when I told them I was leaving. I don't know why they'd think otherwise, but I think my father just thinks that it'll reflect badly on him- not the actual leaving, mind you, but moving with no real plan. I think they half hoped that I'd announce that I do want to work in the Ministry, and my mother keeps reminding me that my father could pull some strings if I wanted to join him at the Prophet. I think they're worried that I'll become some sort of failure but of course, they'll never actually speak to me about it. It's become a sort of taboo subject though I think they'd be more forthcoming about their opinions if I was an only child. But as is, they have two more children to invest in so maybe then it doesn't matter what I become.
I don't even care anymore. I repeat: I have more important things to focus on.
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[ Sun May / 9:07pm ] |
All things considered, yesterday was a fairly good day. The fieldtrip wasn't especially eventful, I admit, but everyone was back to normal so there was no singing and, therefore, no need to strangle anyone. AND I got Dana into trouble.
In the future though, I should be more careful when it comes to losing my temper; it wasn't really the wisest idea to go about threatening everyone. Neither was getting into a fight with Spencer, but that was completely worth it, even if we both ended up in the hospital wing. But honestly, there doesn't seem much point in pretending to like everyone. We're nearly finished with school, and I'm not seeing most of them again after this so it seems like a waste of time. I don't know. But trying to be civil isn't all that difficult under most circumstances so maybe I'll stick with that.
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[ Wed May / 2:23pm ] |
If one more person comes up to me singing and/or being disgustingly ecstatic or tells me to lighten up/dance/make an idiot of myself, I will beat him. Violently and without restraint. Don't believe me? Try me. I'd be my pleasure to rid myself of this excess rage.
Merlin, what the fuck is wrong with everyone? I've given up trying to stay composed.
Private to James
Fucking hell, James, get control of your girlfriend. She and her Claw friend, Jacob or whoever, are being more insufferable than usual, and I'd rather not make you hate me by killing her.
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[ Tue Apr / 5:12pm ] |
A brief public service announcement.
No, not all Slytherins applied for a Ministry internship. No, I am not one of the ones who did. If one more underclassman asks me if I'm going to the ministry in attempts to use me as some connection, I swear that I'll rip his intestines out and feed them to him. Kindly stop asking me; I'd rather not get blood on my robes I'm tired of explaining. Yes, I may end up in government but it will most certainly not be here.
How many more weeks do we have again?
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